NOOO!!!NOT TODAY!!!!
Today I will not listen to you
Try put ideas in my head Making me think am sick,a misfit a mistake
Nooo!!!!NOT TODAY!!!!!
Today ,you’ll listen to me
Without fear I boldly say It’s her
It’s always been
And forever will be her Yes I love her
Not him
Yes Iove Jane not gim Am just a girl not girly
Yes just a girl in love Jane not Charly
Yes I love her,Jane You might see it as insane
A taboo you won’t entertain
My blood colorful rainbow flowing in my veins
Am just a girl in love with girls
Am just so gay am not trying to be a guy
They say it’s unnatural Why does it feel opposite?
Why does touching her feel so legitimate?
Kissing her normal and needful..
If you are attracted to men ,their biceps and triceps,their course voice and masculinity,well am not
Like an unstoppable force am drawn to her
I picture her in my arms Her eyes and mine lock Words on my lips I lack Her lips on mine
Our hearts beat with such a rhythm
Ooooooh It’s a feeling I can’t explain
A woman is a goddess ought to be adored
Gone are the days when I felt
Like a black sheep More of a sinking ship
Gone are the days when I fought me
When I hated me Hating how I felt Denying my truth
Wishing it could be different
Wishing I could be different
Wishing they could understand me
All I needed was to understand me
Love me for who I was
Gone are those days I just desire to be free Trapped I want to flee Enslaved want to feel FREE!!! FREE!!!
With no restrictions, Just to embrace my authenticity
And love her freely
Without fear that they’ll kill me
Coz if they do justice won’t be served Why?????I love her and not him
They say it’s just a sin and lust,it wouldn’t last They say it’s rotten it’s rust
They say am a sinner But it’s all love I inhale So be it If I loving her burn’s me in hell
She gives me peace Gathers my broken pieces
Torn between my truth , family, and religion
I badly want her,am craving for her Society says it’s disgusting
Family expects a him
They’ve taken me to church to pray the gay away
Cast homosexuality and baptize me with heterosexuality
They’ve taken me to hospital to “cure my illness”
They’ve taken me to therapy to convert me They’ve taken me to medicine men to heal me claiming “nilirogwa”
This is me
My truth and authenticity Though they judge me harshly
Though they treat me badly
Though they pierce me with their hateful hurtful words
Though they slap me with prejudice
Though they see my authenticity a curse
I won’t put my pen down Piece I crave for
Like pottery I’ll mold my pain to words
I will bleed by the pen until the pain disappears I will bleed and deal with the pain I won’t disappear
I will right,and right ,and right ,till I heal
My therapist poetry is Like a bird with no wings it makes me fly
I can’t hold her hand in public without ugly stares?????
Why does touching her feel so legitimate?
Kissing her normal and needful..
If you are attracted to men ,their biceps and triceps,their course voice and masculinity,well am not
Like an unstoppable force am drawn to her
I picture her in my arms Her eyes and mine lock Words on my lips I lack Her lips on mine
Our hearts beat with such a rhythm
Ooooooh It’s a feeling I can’t explain
A woman is a goddess ought to be adored
Gone are the days when I felt
Like a black sheep More of a sinking ship
Gone are the days when I fought me
When I hated me Hating how I felt Denying my truth
Wishing it could be different
Wishing I could be different
Wishing they could understand me
All I needed was to understand me
Love me for who I was
With no scares l I’ll kiss her,a hold her tight ,make love to her in my poetry
Funny that loving is illegal It’s sad that we have to keep it a secret
Sad that we have to be discreet
Sad that we can’t even hug in the streets
I’ve been told am into girls coz I never had a good dick
Well I’ve tasted it and it’s disgusting
I tried fighting me and tried to love men it was all yack
It just couldn’t work The thought of him
touching me torments me They slap me with homophobia
Reason????am in masculine clothes and not in a tight dress or trouser to massage their ego.
In the end…..love wins And love is love.
Am gay,if you hate me for that it’s ok
But I won’t stop me from being me
You Hating me
You Hating my truth won’t stop me from loving me Embracing my truth
Why does touching her feel so legitimate?
Kissing her normal
and needful..
If you are attracted to men
,their biceps and triceps,their course voice and masculinity,well am not
Like an unstoppable force am drawn to her
I picture her in my arms Her eyes and mine lock Words
on my lips I lack Her lips on mine
Our hearts
beat with such a rhythm
Ooooooh It’s a feeling I can’t explain
A woman is a goddess
ought to be adored
Gone are the days when I felt
Like a black sheep More of a sinking
ship
Gone are the days when I fought
me
When I hated me Hating how I felt Denying my truth
Wishing it could be different
Wishing I could be different
Wishing they could
understand me
All I needed
was to understand me
Love me for who I was
Gone are those days I just desire to be free Trapped I want to flee Enslaved want to feel FREE!!! FREE!!!
With no restrictions, Just to embrace my authenticity
And love her freely
Without fear that they’ll kill me
Coz if they do justice won’t be served Why?????I love her and not him
They say it’s just a sin and lust,it wouldn’t last They say it’s rotten it’s rust
They say am a sinner But it’s all love I inhale So be it If I loving her burn’s me in hell
She gives me peace Gathers my broken pieces
Torn between my truth , family, and religion
I badly want her,am craving for her Society says it’s disgusting
Family expects a him
They’ve taken me to church to pray the gay away.